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Act 1.

first sounds

first words:

pick a direction, any direction

you could have any man you want

you have to struggle

why can’t you just choose one thing and stick with it

 

Act 2.

I need a drink

a job

a bag of chips

a lover

a second to breathe

to think my own thoughts

what are my own thoughts?

 

Act 3.

I need  a break

some time out

from        all        this

DOING DOING DOING DOING DOING DOING DOING DOING DOING DOING

 

Act 4.

new words

new sounds:

I…

I am….

I am worthy

 

of…

LOVE

 

* I wrote this poem as a part of my Master’s project in Education. I was exploring the boundaries between self and other in my work as a violence prevention educator, seeking to acknowledge the influences (read: family, friends, education, society, media, cultural background) that had taught me to keep busy and strive ever onward toward becoming someone loveable. Once I understood this, I was able to slow down and make room for being quiet, internal.  There I learned that there was nothing I needed to accomplish to be loved. I am worthy of love for simply being alive. We all are.